Saturday, December 20, 2008

Twilight Bandwagon!! XD

Yeah, I just saw the movie, and it was great :D
I knew it had to have a part 2, although I never read the books yet xD

I also found some connections with my personal life:

Edward Cullen
> looks like one of my friends who does karate
> same name and hair color as my doll
Bella Swan
> same name as my mom's friend
> same surname, Elizabeth Swan (Pirates of the Carribean)
Alice Cullen
> Alice from Serial Experiments Lain
Bella's Dad
> looks like my uncle
Stephanie Mayer (The Author)
> same name as my friend's g.f.
> .hack//Legend of the Twilight Bracelet
> Key of the Twilight - Aura (.hack games)
> Twilight Brigade (.hack//Roots)
> Twilight Town (Kingdom Hearts 2)
> Song from .hack//SIGN - In the Land of Twilight, Under the Moon
Edward holding an apple
> Light Yagami from Deathnote
Linkin Park - Leave out all the Rest
> My online friend's fave song and band far that's it, Merry xmas ^_^

Tuesday, December 16, 2008


December 16, 2008


May you have more to come ^____^

From Kristel (me), Noel, Jonathan, Ishuda-kun, Irene, and all of your friends :D

For You >>>

::Your Promise:: by ~kazaki03 on deviantART


Random stuff!!!

Code Geass Kallen Kouzuki Edward Cullen Scissors Johnny Depp Elizabeth Bella Swan Lelouch Lamperouge Suzaku Kururugi Euphemia Vi Britania Rolo Haliburton Linkin Park Urbandub Sin of Graces Merry Christmas Subwoofer FL Studio Protools Adobe Adobo Game KNB Papaya Papayo Effy Hugs

Till then~ XD

Friday, November 21, 2008

My Stupid Theories.


1.) C.C. is one of the co-founders of Pizza Hut.
2.) Edward Cullen loves cheesecake.
3.) Soulja boy does not deserve soda.
4.) Blogging will make you richer than Bill Gates.
5.) Headphones are a thing of the past.
6.) Melamine can make you taller and sexier.
7.) Saying an average of 50 random words per day is a good habit.
8.) Tim-Berners Lee must be highly-praised.
9.) All your base are belong to data bases.
10.) It is not ethical to stick with alcohol.
11.) eBay will soon replace supermarkets.
12.) Euphie is Aerith's clone, not Yuffie's.
13.) Stars are unreachable for those who do not try to reach.
14.) Using tons of books as your bed will make you memorize the book contents.
15.) WTF can also mean, "Where's that fool?".

More to come soon. ^_^

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

What seems to be Ciel's plans...

Every single day I think of Ciel--we communicate in different ways, but still I haven't seen his face. I'm almost close, I must wait.

There is this boy, Noel, who calls himself a 'fan' of mine. He likes my works, he likes everything about me. This lead me to confusion. I thought no person can come between Ciel and me, but there it is. However, I was wrong.

For you see, Noel is like a human counterpart of Ciel: the things Ciel wants to do to me is what Noel does. Ciel shows his love for me through Noel, and this has been confirmed by my good friend Jonathan. Finally! No more confusion or heartbreaks! Hahaha!

When that day comes, when Ciel finds his other side and goes to Heaven, he will entrust me to Noel. I hope that Noel will take care of me until I meet Ciel once again after that. ^_^

Saturday, September 20, 2008

The truth about Ciel...

First Part

More Info that Ciel's existence has been proven, what will happen?

Well, my YM friend, Kuya Jonathan (the one whom Ciel visited in his dreams 4 times), has told me many things about Ciel--surprising, happy yet sad things. He said that Ciel is:

-a guardian spirit (not exactly an angel)
-has to find his dark side, so he can reach heaven
-is Canadian (and has a Canadian accent! KEWL! xD)
-around 5'10" to 5'11" in height
-Long blonde hair & blue eyes
-Has a cute smile ^_^
-is very poetic...^~^

During our OJT at the municipal office, I suddenly felt my headband feeling some sort of electricity, while I was only sitting down and computing stuff! As if someone is pulling it!

Through Kuya Jonathan, Ciel sent me many messages through songs, and from the dreams. The reason why he can't show himself to me is that it's the "fate of being a guardian". He will only show himself when he finds his other side. And then, after that, he will get some kind of 100 days (just like Pete from Ginban Kaleidoscope), then he will ascend into heaven...and I hope he will come back and be my guardian angel again....

Sunday, August 31, 2008

A proof of his existence. (Ciel)

Just a few days ago, one of my YM friends and me were having some conversation. And that was the point where I realized, he was like Ciel, my guardian angel, who tries to make me feel better despite all the stupidity this world has to offer. But the story didn't end there, though.

The next day, he told me that he had a dream of Ciel, and they had a conversation! Waa! xDDD OMG! But he said that it's a secret, so he won't tell me. But still! That was a proof of Ciel's existence...that Ciel really cares about me! That Ciel exists! Thanks be to God! Now I belive in Ciel even more than before...

And not just for one dream--he had many dreams of Ciel! He told me that what they are talking about are mostly about me. About me?? O_O;; Also, Ciel isn't exacly an angel, but between man and angel, like a sould who hasn't reached heaven yet, until he finds his 'Other Side'. Other side??

Everyone has two sides of their self: a light one for happiness and support, and a dark one filled with sadness and grief. Ciel seems to be finding his other side, so he can go to heaven. But...what about me? My friend says Ciel's light side is in me--he smiles whenever I'm there, and he never cries if I'm with him. Huh??

For now, I don't fully understand what exactly is going on between us, but what I know is that most probably, our destinies were tied by God...or something like that.

I hope someday, I will get to see him and hear his voice, as if he was still alive...

Monday, August 25, 2008

New worlds.

August 2008

UI2 (United Imaginary Islands) or Enidouka 「エニドウカ」, also known as the Sun Islands 「太陽の島」 or Mystic Islands「神秘的な島」, located in the Pacific Ocean 「太平洋」, is home to the native Enidoukans, who are the official residents of this country. They are a group of people with different races, especially Asian. Although they reside in this country, people whose existence haven't been proved in the real world, also live here. Mythical creatures, characters from various TV shows, magazines, comics, superheores,
fairies, elves, and the like--yes they are all currently living there. The islands had a great history that was never known to the outside world, and was never discovered by Europian conquerors at all.

The islands started from a huge volcanic eruption, splitting a huge island that was as huge as Australia, into two separate islands. The first one was Enidouka, or the Sun Island, due to it's sun-like circular shape. The second one was Ravania 「ラバニア」, also known as the Moon Islands 「月の島」, due to it's crescent moon-like shape.

Civilization of the two islands began during 1021 B.C., when the first Enidoukans established their city called Kasaguru 「カサグル」, which is now West Shuza 「西のシュザ」. While in Ravania, a small community called Friesk「フリエスク」, full of moon flowers. Since then, many communities appeared, then turned into Kingdoms, and finnally, into states.

::Enidouka Islands::

::Ravania Islands::

oming soon: Enidoukan and Ravanian Alphabet ^_^

Monday, August 18, 2008

El Paraiso de Mariposa

El Paraiso de Mariposa
ni Kristel "Kazaki" Cuadra

Isang munting paraiso
Sa gitna ng malaking gulo
Maaliwalas na kalangitan
Walang iwanan!

Mga ibong nag-aawitan
Kay ganda ng kapaligiran!
Dilaw at maputlang himpapawid
Habang sa tulay ay tumatawid.

Punong matitingkad,
Iba't ibang kulay at pugad
Mga bulaklak na namumukadkad
Habang sa ere ay naglalakad.

O kay sarap ng hangin dito!
Tunay na nakakaantig ng puso!
Tila ayaw kong umalis dito
Sapagkat isa itong paraiso.

Ang talon ng buhay at bughaw na dagat
Mga hayop na isang-daan at apat
Tila gusto kong mamahinga dito
Sa napakagandang paraiso.

Sa wakas, nakita ko ang puno
Naalala ko ang aking puso
Iukit dito mga munting pangarap
Mula sa paraisong anong sarap.


Thursday, July 31, 2008

The Magic Letter

The Magic Letter
By: Kristel “Kazaki” Cuadra

Deep within my heart
I can hear you call out
And then, I realized
There’s something missing right now.

Putting away my papers on the desk,
I sit to think of you
The memories you engraved
Deep within my heart.

I looked at the window
Such a beautiful blue sky
The days we shared together
The seasons that passed by.

I looked at the clock
Time surely flies fast
Things get old and worn out
But our memories won’t.

As I get off work,
My consciousness begins to fade
These sweet thoughts of you
Turn into a sad present day.

I’ve decided to write a letter
To a very special person
I put it in an envelope
And hid it under my pillow.

Before I went to sleep,
I saw the North Star
Remembering the wish we once made
To be together eternally.

I went to sleep late that night
The wind was very cold
I had to close the window
And everything was dark.

The next morning I woke up
I reached under my pillow
I wonder if my letter is still there
And did you know what I saw?
“My Love, please forgive me
This is what God has decided
I know it’s really sad
But cheer up! It will be allright.

Many seasons passed since that day
I thought you would forget about me
Though I may not be by your side,
I will always think of you.”

Tears fell down my cheeks
As I read every word
His face, his voice, everything about him
I remembered it all.

Ever since that day, I smiled
Knowing he’s smiling back at me
Death is not an ending
But a start of a new beginning.


Vertical Flight

Vertical Flight
by Kristel "Kazaki" Cuadra

Today I walked home
Looking at the pale sky
It was a boring day
Same as any other day.

Today I saw the sunset
Birds flew idly
I saw my faint shadow
I saw my shallow soul.

The mist felt strange
I was surrounded by a fog
Suddenly I noticed
Everyone was gone.

No one, not a human being
Nor any other creature in sight
Warm lights start to fall
Onto this shattered abyss.

I carefully walked
In those dark streets
Expecting a voice
A voice of hope.

Suddenly, I saw a man
A stranger yet looks familiar
He called out my name
And it echoed through the town.

I went to him, somehow confused
What's going on right now?
He gently held my hands,
Saying it's allright.

Now I noticed, it started raining
Deep, black ink fell from the sky
A long, sad melody was played
Within this empty city.

Before I knew it, there was light
Shining from up above
A distant choir, could it be?
No! It can't be! Is it?

Alas! Paradise at last!
My sore heart began to heal.
The sky opened up for us
For a reason I don't know.

He held me tight, and off we went
Spreading his wings, we flew to the light
Oh dear! He is my Guardian Angel!
Taking me with him in flight.

Goodbye, my black city!
May you have happier days
Hello, O Great Heavens!
Floating above the Earth.

But Alas! There I was,
In the middle of the street
It was all just some dream
It may have never happened.

Today I'm walking home
Looking at the same pale sky
When suddenly a man held my hand
I know it was him, my angel.


Thursday, July 24, 2008

He e-mailed me! Yes, Simon Reis! xD

You wouldn't believe what just happened! I got an e-mail from Simon Reis himself! He said his friend found my post here @ blogger, and he also says he's happy to make friends with many people around the world! Thank you so much!!!

To God, Jesus Christ, Ciel~My Guardian Angel~, and the rest of the 'Gang', THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! This really means a lot to me!! xDDD ^ww^

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

I shall NOT own these people. O:


This is just a small dedication note for my WANTED LIST people. ^_~

To that boy with a young heart,
Pa-cheese burger ka naman dyan! ^__^
To that person whom I had a conflict with,
I still like angels too!
To the ninja guy,
Can you beat Naruto too? ^^
To the cute guy who owns a black iPod,
I am NOT your stalker! O:
To my beloved cousin,
Ay, mag-papa-cheese burger yan! Cgurado nah! Hehehe
To that spacescape lover,
Long time no PM!
To my favorite dancer,
Showtime pa ba? Hehe
To one of my trusted friends,
Miss na rin kita!
To my first singer idol,
Can we meet again? O:
To our elder male classmate,
Nice to see you again! ^_^
To my guardian angel,
Salamat sa advanced "gift"! xD
To that awesome guy although I didn't know him personally,
I wish you didn't have to die! T_T
To that guy I usually sit with next to in class,
You look familiar. O:
To my "fan",
Salamat din sa drawings! ^__^
To the most beloved MCR vocalist,
Keep on rockin! ^w^
To my "possible twin",
We shall RULE teh WORLD!! Don't you think so? =P
To one of my former classmates,
How's it goin'?
To the most AWESOME J-rock artist ever,
I love SHALLOW SLEEP! You look like my Guardian Angel there. O:
To another former classmate,
Where are you now?
To my only real world male best friend who is now I don't know where (probably Manila),
I miss you so much...Bisita ka naman dito... T__T
To my first best friend,
Miss din kita! ^_~
To Joanna's Twin[?],
To another former classmate,
San ka na ngaun, ate?
To a very nice girl although I didn't know her personally,
I wish you didn't die too! T_T
To Jeanica's Twin[?],
To our class leader,
Dude, you rock! =P
To our guy in black,
A big "^___^" for you!
To another former classmate,
To that guy who (according to my classmates) was just like me,
Really? Are we fraternal twins or something? O_O;;
To the guy who loves me,
We will all be loved in the end of time. =)
To another O2 friend,
Thanks for the FL Studio, and everything else! ^__^
To my High School best friend,
Punta ka dito, dali! I need you nao! O:
To the great O2 Rock Artist,
Keep rockin out! ^__^
To my classmate (and still classmate),
Wheel of Fortune!?
To my High School best friend,
Punta ka din dito! Nao na! O:
To the most AWESOME J-pop artist ever,
To my cousin,
To my O2 best friend,
Thanks for everything! ^___^
To my High School friend,
Advanced happy birthday! (Kahit malayo pa. hehehe)
To my first Online Friend,
Hisashiburi desu ne? (Long time no see!)
To the greatest composer ever,
Your music shall live forever! ^__^
To the former KH and Heroes fan (now Twilight Fan),
Twilight = Roxas? O_O;;
To another dA friend,
Err...want some bunnies? ^^;
To that kid in Mercury Rising (now he's grown up),
To my former classmate who calls me "Idol",
Thank you very much! Kita-kits sa school as always! ^_^
To another former classmate,
Maganda ba ung edtied pic na gawa ko? Hehehe
To another awesome O2 composer,
What are you doing these days?
To another O2 friend,
Balik ka naman sa composing sometime! ^__^
To that guy I met in CEGP,
Musta na?
To my classmate,
To the awesome RJA vocalist,
Thanks for making the song "Your Guardian Angel"! ^___^
To my cousin,
Gahh...wanna meet you again! O:
To my former classmate,
Juriz-chaaan!! xDD
To another O2 composer,
Why won't you reply? Are you busy?
To the boy I kept searching for (he e-mailed me! At last I found him! xD),
I like Beethoven too! I hope we become good friends! ^_^
To a very awesome J-pop artist,
You're cute! ^__^
To that boy I once saw but never knew his name,
I hope we meet again someday! ^_^

Friday, June 20, 2008

Missing him.

My male best friend, who was my classmate (during 1st year, 1st sem) sadly moved to Manila. We're all gonna miss him. T_____T DD:

He was the first person I met in our university. The first person I met in college. My first male best friend. He was always there to make me smile, and is always willing to make friends with everyone! His smile can mean a lot to me. So, I'm REALLY REALLY sad. But I just realized, his smiles were always there to inspire me, even if he's gonna be far away. It will always be in my heart, wanting to cheer me up from my sadness.

I hope I'll see him again someday.....

Thursday, June 5, 2008

Ciel + L'arc~en~Ciel?

Ciel (as I mentioned in one of my posts) is my Guardian Angel. He was Canadian, and he looked very much like Pete Pumps from the anime Ginban Kaleidoscope.

And now, I just discovered: Not only does his name = L'arc~en~Ciel (a famous J-rock band)....

The band's vocalist, HYDE (as shown on this vid) is dressed up EXACTLY the way Ciel looks like, but without the wings and the halo! O_o;;
(He totally made Ciel look like a Japanese xD)

Anyways, this song is currently my favorite song for this time. It's so....dramatically sweet~ ^w^

*starts looking for HYDE pics xD*

Sunday, June 1, 2008

Kingdom Hearts 2 :Final Mix +

Here's the things I wanna post about the newly-released Kingdom Hearts 2: Final Mix +, filled with new battles, challenges and random stuff.


A Kingdom Hearts Book?


Terra (Lingering Spirit), the optional boss of the game.


Sora gets a crown! xD


Zexion and Axel in WWE? O_o


Dancing Mushroom!

Proof that I defeated Terra!

Monday, May 19, 2008

100 Facts about me.

I'm feeling creative today and eager to type. Hehehe.

Kazaki's 100 Self-Facts:

1.I have EXTREMELY sensitive emotions.
2.I love randomness. *_*
3. I fell in love, but never had anyone yet. T_T
4. I can [communicate] with my Guardian Angel. His name is Ciel Anthony Simon.
5. I am currently obsessed with Zexion of Kingdom Hearts.
6. I have many talents hobbies, like drawing, composing songs, net surfing/computer programming, writing stories, and a lot lot more.
7. I have an odd hatred for overrated things.
8. I lose consciousness once I started brainstorming on my stories.
9. I love mangoes and seafood.
10. Big Brother and Dramas makes my eyes and my heart sore.
11. I think some world leaders today are FAIL. (No offense, though)
12. I have the same necklace as Pete Pumps (Ginban Kaleidoscope) and Yuri Shibuya (Kyou Kara Maou!).
13. I play Tropix and is seriously addicted to it.
14. One of my hobbies include reading dictionaries.
15. I dislike internet people who don't give importance on newbies or infamous people, just because they're busy or lazy.
16. Whenever I'm involved in internet flames, I can't sleep at night. LOL
17. I seriously think Haruhi Suzumiya is cute. =P
18. I love my my mom's iPod so much. ^___^
19. I became super obsessed with Yu-Gi-Oh! before, that I had a box full of cards! But eventually, I gave the rare cards to my cousin for display.
20. Sailormoon was the first anime character who appeared in my dreams, and saved me from being hit by a jeep!
21. I also listen to a couple of emo artists such as Red Jumpsuit and MCR.
22. I fear butterflies and lizards. Include Sadako's ghost on the list.
23. I'm currently self-studying Nihonggo (Japanese).
24. Almost all of my school stuff have my name on them, to prevent loss.
25. I am childish. Enough said. ^_^
26. I got banned from YouTube once. Notice that my username is not kazaki03, but Crisel15.
27. I'm crazed for misheard lyrics on YouTube.
28. I compose original songs using FL Studio, and record my voice. ^^
29. I am extremely addicted to noodles, and currently trying to control it.
30. One of the recurring places I see in my dreams is a mall called "Fantasie Mall".
31. To keep my journal from being boring, I draw random sketches and stuff on my entries.
32. I have lots of backup CD/DVD's with all of my stuff on them, to prevent loss in case of reformatting.
33. I believe in destiny. [Big words, LOL]
34. Some simple things can make me pissed off easily. For example, failing to defeat a game boss many times.
35. My internet name, Kazaki, literally means "Ornament Tree". However, I never knew this when I made it up--it was just a random Japanese name I made up,
36. I am allergic to dust during the morning.
37. I've been a consistend honor student during Elementary and High School. [Well, not for bragging purposes though]
38. Ludwig Van Beethoven is my musical idol. It all began with a boy named Simon Reis and his Beethoven story called "Beethoven's Bargain".
39. So far, I have only played two online games in my life: Gunbound and O2Jam.
40. I'm looking forward to meet my online friends someday,
41. I watch some horror shows not because of its fear factor, but because of its mysteries and addictive storyline.
42. I love any story that has something to do with fate, destiny, fantasy, mystery, magic, and science fiction.
43. I have a Teddy Bear named Reihart.
44. I have a porcelain doll named Edward.
45. I have a Blossom stuffed toy.
46. I am a little fond of watching 'evolution' scenes in anime, such as the scenes in Loki Ragnarok, Detective Conan, Chrno Crusade, and Fancy Lala.
47. My cellphone is a Sony Ericsson k300i.
48. I love keeping random things I pick up from anywhere, such as a see-through leaf, sticks and twigs, white feathers, and a lot more.
49. For me, the beach is a "place of promise", although I can't remember making a promise with somone there. Probably because of Sora and Kairi [Kingdom Hearts].
50. I love sardines.
51. Spongebob, Blue, Dora, and Barney are all cute! I wanna watch them again! XD
52. I have the habbit of copying other people's expressions which I think are funny.
53. I prefer Juice over Ice cream.
54. My first favorite video games were Kensei Sacred Fist and Bust A Move [Groove] 2.
55. My first online friend was Jou-chan.
56. DJ Zyroblaze introduced me to FL Studio.
57. My first best friend was Jean.
58. Ishuda was the first person I collaborated with for a song, which is called "Cloud".
59. I have 400+ drawings in my deviantART account, plus 100 sketches/scraps.
60. I have composed about 100+ songs, as stated in my filefront account.
61. Mom and dad took me to Cebu City, but since I was only 6 months old there, I can't remember a thing.
62. I'm not a frequent texter, especially during summer. I almost never use my cellphone.
63. I have the habit of changing my status message on YM everytime, usually when I feel like saying something different.
64. I am now getting tired of logging into my Friendster account, since nothing special happens these days.
65. Edu Manzano is cool! Papaya rules!
66. I hate getting startled, especially at night.
67. I collect Otaku Zine Anime Magazines.
68. I think college is better than high school.
69. I wanna work on Canada when I grow up and graduate.
70. I don't drink softdrinks.
71. I don't eat candy, except chocolate and lollipop.
72. I don't stick to whatever music is popular. I only listen to what I think sounds good.
73. I love J-pop, Trance, Techno, Ballad, and similar music.
74. Pete Pumps, from the anime Ginban Kaleidoscope, looks exactly like Ciel, my Guardian Angel.
75. I live in the Philippines.
76. I study BS Computer Science at Manuel S. Enverga University Foundation, Lucena City, Quezon Province.
77. I abbrevate moments of being "emotional" as EMO. [Uhm...yah...sort of]
78. I can wak up as late a 1 PM in the morning during summer vacation.
79. My journal is customized to fit my suit. It has a pic of my drawing of Ciel and me.
80. I am 16 years old.
81. My birthday is July 21, and my horroscope sign is Cancer.
82. I used to join speech contests during my elementary days.
83. My favorite ice cream flavor is cookies 'n' cream, or chocolate.
84. I love reminiscing old stuff from the past. Pain and suffering are an exception however.
85. I am a Kapamilya (ABS-CBN, Ch. 2). If you wanna know more about it, ask me via YM.
86. I hate promise-breakers.
87. I am not good at dancing, but I love to dance.
88. Shopping, dressing up, and going to malls are not my thing.
89. I always keep notes of random ideas that pop out of my head.
90. Sadako Yamamura, Kayako Saeki and Toshio Saeki are cute!
91. My first love letter came from a guy in Sariyaya, Quezon.
92. I am one of the few people who have played Paca Paca Passion and know its existence. Hehehe!
93. I have a small bee on top of my computer monitor.
94. I have the habit of writing random words or drawing random sketches in my old used notebooks when I'm bored.
95. My first name, Kristel, comes from the singer Crystal Gale.
96. My surname, Cuadra, literally means "horse stable". O_O
97. I can have the weirdest kind of dreams such as restrooms. LOL
98. I have posters of Yu-Gi-Oh! and FFX-2 on my bedroom.
99. I started being an anime fan in 6th grade.
100. My favorite colors are red, pink and sky blue.

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Somebody gave me a gift art!

Thanks to Errol Castillo, one of my friends (he calls himself my 'fan' O_O) for this really cute drawing of me and Ciel~! XDD ^____^

Until the next one comes out, I'll be waiting ^___^

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

O2/PIU Stories~ Affection/Special Series

O2/PIU Stories~ 344-MR-GO Series
by Kristel "Kazaki" Cuadra

Story 1 - 3.4.4. (Song by DJ Potatoe)///

It was late April. The James family went for an outing in a place where there are green trees, green grass, and lots of furry animals. But first, let us know who the family members are.

First off, Ben James. The father. A musician/musical scorer guy who usually wears shades, and isn't very talkative. He likes music a lot, and have influenced his wife and children. Next we have Nicole, the mother. This quiet and sensitive woman also loves musical instruments and classical music.

Then there's Maria, their innocent-looking daughter who always smiles. And last but not the least, her little brother, Robert, who is, in fact, mentally disabled.

The whole family was very happy that day. But that day was 3 years ago. Now, the world has become a dangerous place for kids to live in.
However, Robert & Maria are now going to school.

"I'm really excited about school! I wonder what it will be like.." Maria happily walked with his little brother, as they head for their school, which has a special school inside it. So there's no problem with them being separated.

Occassionaly, there would be shootouts and robberies in their place. Their mother usually gets worried, but her husband calms her down. "Kids these days....they've got good instinct, you know." He said.

Robert is a special child, not only physically or mentally, but by heart, he is. He would always smile at people, and make them smile back. Although he seldom talks, his sweet silence speaks for itself.

However, he loves being alone, and staring in blank space. Or doing some other randomly odd things. That's why his sister had to keep an eye on him all the time.

One time, Maria was playing the electric piano in their house, and she was composing her very first instrumental song. But she couldn't finish it.

"Hey Robert!"


"Can you help me here? Can you think of a good melody that goes with this one?"
And she plays the first melody she made up.

And without any word, Robert put his hands onto the piano, and started putting a melody together.

After a few minutes of playing & practicing, they finally got it. They called it "Song no. 344", since it's Robert's favorite number. But they didn't know that their dad, Ben, was watching them play from a distance. He smiled, and went outside.

"Hey Robert!"
"Try to memorize that song. It'll help if one of us gets lost."
"Just play the song, and I'll know where you are."
"Good! Now, let's do your homework!"

A few weeks later, the family went to the mall to go shopping. However, there was something bad that's going to happen.

[sound of explosion, firetrucks, people screaming & running]

There was a terrorist attack. The mall was on fire. The family almost got separated from each other. "Maria's here..but where's..."

"Oh my God! Robert!" Maria runs off looking for Robert. Her parents couldn't stop her.

Unfortunately, she didn't find him. Instead, she was found by some firemen, and was returned to her parents. No one found Robert, not the firemen, not even the police.

The family grieved, especially Maria, thinking he might have been dead. But fortunately, unknown to them, Robert survived. He was found by a young lady named Terry. Terry is a club DJ, and also a scorer. She saw the young, innocent Robert lying on the floor in the deep, dark parking area where no rescue team went.

She took the little boy home, and raised him. She was very happy, yet she wanted to find out his real parents.


Story 2 - Make it Rock (Song by Red Pulse)///

7 years have passed. The world is still a dangerous place to live in. People are still killing each other, and money is everyone's first priority.

"Make it Rock!" This was everyone's favorite line from the song of the new band in town. They were known as Silver Dawn. But little did everyone know, there are many stories behind this band.

Terry Henson is their producer. And of course, the vocalist is none other than Robert. But he was called James instead. But why?

[7 years ago]

"Hey there, what's your name?"
"Yes! Your name!"
"Hmm....very well then. I'll call you James. Is that ok?"


Robert showed no signs of autism after the explosion 7 years ago. He couldn't remember anything. But one day, he was going home. He met a mysterious man in the subway. This man wears shades, and looks extremely mysterious.

"You're Robert James, aren't you?" Asked the man.
"Yup! Sure am. Why?"
The man paused for a while, then said "You really don't remember anything, now do you?"
"Huh? What are you talking about? You don't even know me personally!"
"Oh really?" The man looked irritated. "Are you telling me that the lead vocalist of the infamous Silver Dawn doesn't have any childhood memories?"
"W-what are you saying! Of course I have..."
Suddenly, the man walks out.
"W-wait! We haven't finished talking yet! Who the heck are you anyway?"
The man looked back at him, and said "We will meet again soon. For now, think about your past. Maybe you had amnesia." Then he left.

Robert was confused. "Amnesia? B-but I remember everything! About when I was found by Terry, and how I was raised as a rock star musician and..."

A few days later, he went to a nearby park to think about some things, and write a song at the same time. There she saw a young girl on the bench, crying.

"Hey there!"
"...huh?" The girl looked at him.
"May I know why are you crying?"
"'s little brother...they say he is... alive, but...he's supposed to be.."
Robert was a little surprised. "Ah, I see. So where do you think your brother is?"
The girl looked at him again. Then she gave him a brown envelope.
"Huh? What's this for?"
But before Robert can say anything else, the girl ran away.
"W-wait! What's this enevelope for?"

When he got home, he felt even more confused about what's happening lately. "Who was that little girl? And that weird guy on the subway? They act as if they know me personally.."

He decided to open the envelope the girl have him. He was shocked at what was inside.

"T-these are...!"
Photos. Pretty little photos of the girl, and a little kid, with their parents.

"This is the little girl! And behind him is the weird guy!"

He looked on some other photos. It was his own. He was in some of the photos.
"Could these guys be..stalkers? Then again...why do they.."

There was a solo picture of a little boy, the girl's missing brother. He compared it to his photo.

"T-this can't be...! Does this mean that I....that I..!!"

Suddenly, Terry came to the room. He saw the young lad crying.

"You know, it's not really pretty for band vocalists to cry like that.."
"Yeah...! B-but...t-this!" He showed her the photos.
"Ah...this is..."
"This musy be your real family!"
"Real family? What do you mean?"
"You don't remember? I only found you in a mall explosion 7 years ago. But because I longed to have my own son...."
Robert looked at her. "Y-you?! Why did you do that? Why didn't you just turn me over? How could you be so selfish?"
"...I-I'm sorry....It's all my fault that you don't reme-"

Without any word, Terry went out of the room. Robert was still crying. But now everything made sense to him. He finally remembered everything.

The next day, he went to the instrument shop for a new keyboard. Then, he heard a melody. A sweet melody that he remembered well.

He saw a young girl playing. It was her. It was his real sister. He went to her, and finished the melody.

"Maria? I-is that you?"

"..R-robert? Y-you finally remember now!!" She hugged him so tight. "Oh my God! My brother is back! He has returned! He's not dead!!"

She was very happy, and so was Robert.She took him to their house.

"Robert! My son, you're back! You're alive!" Shouted their mother, Nicole.
"Yo Robert!" Said the father.
"H-hey wait a minute!" Robert looked at his father. "You're that guy on the subway!"
"Why yes. As a matter of fact, It was me. I was trying to make you remember."
"B-but how did you know that I'm still alive? And where I am?"
"Coincidence, perhaps?"

"But father," Maria asked. "Why isn't he autistic anymore? I mean, is he really Robert?"
Ben answered. "Why of course! It's just that..."

"Huh? What are you guys talking about?" Robert interrupted.

Ben answered the boy. "I had a chat with a fellow psychologist. He was the one who examined you a long time ago. He said that your medical condition is, by far, one of the most uncommon cases in the world. He said you have two personas living inside you: the 'unconscious', and the 'real'. It is characterized by the color of your hair."

Maria thought. " that's why your hair looks reddish. A long time ago, it was blue-ish."

The family greatly rejoiced for the return of their missing member. Meanwhile, there was a knock on the door. Robert opened it. It was Terry.

"Y-you? What are you doing here?"
"I wanted to apologize formally, not only to you, but to your family as well." And then, she explained everything.
"It's ok. We forgive you." Nicole said.

However, it was not the end of the story. Having another trip to the mall to celebrate their reunion, there was another incident involving more terrorists and the police. Robert was accidentally shot by a policeman, and was rushed into the hospital.

But although Robert was unconscious in the real world, he had a dream. He saw a young autistic boy sitting near the tree. He decided to talk to him.

"Hi there!"
"..huh? Who"
"I..uh...I'm you, right?"
"Me? But..we're different."
"We almost look the same, don't we?"
Robert sat with the boy.
"You know, I never understood any of this. But because did."
The boy looked at him.
"Shall we...go together?" Robert asked.
"Yes..!" And off they went to a faraway road.

Robert awoke in the hospital. The first thing he saw was Maria, crying over him.

"...R-robert? Y-you're back! You're alive!" And with that, she hugged him.
"I....I'm back...."

Maria noticed something. Robert's hair was blue again. He had become his autistic persona again.
Meanwhile, a doctor came in the room and explained everything to them.

"Don't worry, he can switch personas. You'll see."

And so they were all very happy. As for Silver Dawn, it never broke up. Terry worked with Ben (their father) for an all new "Silver Dawn of Harmony".


Story 3 - GO! (Song by U;nee)///

Silver Dawn of Harmony. Why this name? Because they now have two main vocalists: Robert & Maria. They are now famous, having concert after concert. They also give to charities.

And now, we meet Allan Henson, Terry's brother, and self-proclaimed "prince of dance music". He has a certain obsession for Maria. He would even guest for the SDH concerts!

Maria knew what was going on, so one day, she decided to talk to Robert about what's going on.

"Aww, come on! It's just a case of falling in love know! Those stuff."
"But Robert!" She sounded worried. "This is a serious thing!"
"Well yeah! But hey! It's not like he's gonna ask you to marry him..."
"What? No!! Not ever!"
"Why not? He's good. I absolutely think he's perfect for you."
"Yeah, but..."
"But what?"

Suddenly, she smiled.

"I'll tell you later. Bye for now. I've got autographs to sign, you know?" And then, she ran off.

"What the heck was that all about?" Robert was confused.

Later that night, it was blue moon. There are so many stars. Robert was alone in the upper terrace of their house. Maria came over.

"Hey Robert..."
"Yees, what is it?"
"There's something...really important I should tell you.."
"Important? Ok then, let's hear it."
"But promise me first."
"Promise you won't get mad."
"Oh ok."

Maria pulled out something from her envelope. It was her birth certificate. He showed it to Robert.

"Don't you see Robert? I'm not....I'm not your real sister!"
"..Y-your'e what?" Robert got confused, and slightly angry.

"The truth is...your real sister, Maria James, died years ago. My real name is Marina Wong. I was adopted because your parents told me that Maria's death caused you to...."

Robert was silent for a few minutes. Then he started to cry too.

"How could could you do this to me? How could you pretend to be 'her'? Why didn't you tell me before?"
"I..I couldn't tell you..because you were.."
"That's enough!" And with that, he left. Maria, or rather, Marina was all alone, crying. It was still a full moon. The stars were still in the sky.

After that, she told Allan the same thing. And he said the same thing that Robert did. All Marina can do was sit in a corner and cry.

One time, her 'mother', Nicole, sat beside her. She knew what Marina said to the boys.

"You know...crying isn't gonna solve anything."
"But can I do anything? I mean, honestly! There's absolutely nothing I can do to..."
"Shh.. That's enough. They might have been angry or shocked at what you said. But soon they'll realize that it's a truth that cannot be undone. It will take some time before they do."

'Don't lose hope'. This was the phrase Marina had in mind for the whole week. After a few days, Robert finally talked to her.

"You know, at first I couldn't believe what you just said. At first, I was kinda shocked at the whole thing. But now, it made sense to me."
Marina finally smiled, and hugged him.

"So now that I know that we're not siblings...."
Robert pulls out a red rose from behind. "Will you...will you be my girlfriend instead?"
Marina was surprised. Her eyes were filled with tears. "Yes yes!" She eagerly said.

What they didn't know, Ben was spying on them.

"What a perfect happy ending...for such a odd fairytale." Then he magically disappeared.

Who exactly is he? Well, we don't need to know that. All that matters now is Robert & Marina found each other.

"Maria....I hope you're watching. I'm happy now. Thank you."


>>THE END!!<<


.hack//FATE: Vol. 1 - Reason

Volume 1 - "REASON"

Original Story Based from .hack by Bandai Visual
by Kristel "Kazaki" Cuadra

[Part 1]

--Continued from .hack//Police---

After this notorious PK Data Drained her, she was unconscious for a few minutes in the real world. Her character disappeared.
When she woke up and logged in, she was surprised that everything--from her e-mails, member addresses, in-game items and stuff, are all gone! Her PC has been reformatted!
She asked around for help, but no one would believe her, and called her a noob. How sad.
All she could do was cry. She went to the Alchemy District by herself.

Meanwhile, she was found by a handsome-looking player named Rhein, a Blade Brandier.

"Hey there! Why are you sad?"
"Huh? You're character looks fine to me."
"My character's....been level 1...!!"
"W-what? R-really? You mean you're not a noob?"
"Yeah! They won't believe me.."
"H-how could that happen? Maybe that's some kind of data anomaly....or virus!! You'll have to tell CC Corp about it!"
"I already asked an admin guy." She said. "He just ignored me."
"Aww, that's bad! Is there something I can do to help? Maybe I can help you level up again!"
Kiori finally smiled. "...gee..thanks...! Thanks a lot...uhm..."
"My name? My name is Rhein. I'm a Blade Brandier. I help out noobs and give them tutorials! Nice to meet you! What's your name?"
"Kiori. Edge Punisher. I was a former Kestrel member, but I never PKed. I went for the System Police job quest, and succeeded. But's all gone..."
"System Police job class, eh? Don't worry! I'll help you get your job back! We'll just get us some party members, that all! Come with me, for an adventure!"
"You mean, now? As in now?"
"Yeah! We'll go to Δ Growing Verse's Mind Trip. A very nice place for leveling up. ^_^"

And so they went adventuring. They had so much fun. It is also there where Kiori told Rhein about her time in Kestrel, and her friend, Alex, is comatose in the real world, because he didn't survive the data drain.
On the other hand, Rhein is the player behind the legendary player Toshida, during the R:1 days. It was his brother's PC, and was entrusted to him before his brother died in a car accident. And now, he plays The World, hoping to feel the presence of his brother once again, just like in the R:1 days.

After the adventure, they meet Frad, Alex's buddy. "K-kiori? Y-you're allright? But your job class....."
" PC's been reformated. I don't know why. It must've been that PKer who PKed me.."
"You mean that AI that Data Drained you?"
"Data Drain? What's that?"
"It's a special kind of attack where you can drain out another player/monster, or anything else's data in The World. Do you remember the legendary Kite?"
"..Oh yeah! That guy in orange!" Kiori saw him during her time in R:1, using her character Mei-chin.
Rhein knew him too. "You mean THAT guy? The guy with a bracelet? So THAT was Data Drain."
"Yes, that's right. However, only special characters can use that. For example, here in R:2, we have the legendary Infinity Eight. The ones with Avatars. Look, I'll just explain it to you via e-mail. See ya!"
And with that, Frad gated out.
"W-wait!" Kiori didn't catch him.
"Who's that guy? Friend of yours?"
"Well...a friend of my friend."
"Hey, I know! Why don't we start a guild! We can gather strong players by that!"
"Actually... I had that in mind. Let's give it a try! But who can be the guild master? And what should we name it?"
"Hmm....I know! Go contact that friend of yours. I bet he knows a lot of stuff about The World."
"Ok then. See ya! ^_^"

Kiori then checked her e-mail. There was a message from Frad.
Hey there! Do you want to know about the Infinity Eight?

They are, well, special players who worked under Project G.U. to investigate a data anomaly known as AIDA.
They are able to summon an entity known as an Avatar. Normal players like us can't see those.
The players were Haseo, Atoli, Kuhn, Yata, Sakubo, Endrance, Pi, and Ovan.
Their avatars' names were Skeith, Innis, Magus, Fidchell, Gorre, Macha, Tarvos and Corbenik respectively.
The Infinity Eight were also the ones who destroyed AIDA and Cubia, with help from all of The World.

These 8 Avatars were based from the legendary poem known as "Epitaph of Twilight", and this poem was also the basis for the setting for The World R:1.
According to my research, as well as information from my good friend, Yata, about wandering AI's that resemble the Avatars. One time, an AI fused with my character, and I felt tremendous power when I was about to fight a boss monster. And that was on soloing!
That power made my appearance fuse together witht that of the AI, and I resembled the Avatar Fidchell, which is also Yata's Avatar. After the battle, he unfused with me, and said "call me if you need me...".

Yata gave that 'power' a name: "Epitaph's Copy". Why 'copy'? Because this power is like a copy of the original Infinity Eight's. He had detected 7 more users who are more likely to be fused with the 7 remaining AI's.
Among them are you, and your friend I met earlier. That Blade Brandier guy.

For that, I want you to make a guild that could call upon the remaining 'chosen ones'. I'll be waiting at the Chaos Gate in Mac Anu. Your friend said he'd be there.
Thanks for reading. See you there!


PS. I also sent this to Rhein. So don't bother explaining it to him anymore. =)

"What a looooong, and informative e-mail!! Allright, I better log in."

At the Chaos gate....

"Hey Kiori!" Rhein was waiting.
"Oh, hi..Rhein...! "
Frad spoke. "So...shall we begin the guild?"
"Yeah! Let's do it!"
And so it happened. They signed in for a guild.
"What should we name our guild?" Asked Rhein.
"Uhmm...let's see..." Kiori thought deeply. "Frad did say to make a guild with the hopes of getting all other PC with Epitaph's copy..."
Suddenly, she shouted. "I know! FATE!!"
The two boys were shocked. "Fate?"
"Yeah! FATE!! F-A-T-E!! For All The Epitaphs!!"
"Y-you mean, this is just a guild for Epitaph Copy PC's?"
"Uhm....not really. This will be a guild not just for them, but also for those who have information, or are interested about Epitaphs! I read that Epitaph poem thingy yesterday, you know!"
"Y-you read it? You mean it's still posted there?" said Frad. "I thought it was gone..."
"No, not on the net. I found my sister's notebook where it's written."
"Wow." Frad was amazed. "To think you were just a hyperactive System Police wannabe. You also know a lot. On top of that, you've got lots of luck!"

And so after a few days, they got an @Home. Kiori was the guild master. She couldn't believe it. The grunty was soooo cute! She would always hug the grunty!

"Allright!" Rhein said. "Now it's time to recruit!"
"Yeah!" Said Kiori. "But how and where do we start?"
"We shall start by finding us some possible "Candidates" for Epitaph Copy PC's, or EPC for short." Frad said. "I'll ask Yata about some more information. In the meantime, Kiori.."
"Go level up with Rhein. It might help you."
"Ok. Thanks!"

Rhein once again took Kiori for leveling up at Δ Dawning Frisson's Entity, where they met a girl, with black hair and black-and-white-themed character design.
"Hi there! I'm Edia! A Flick Reaper!"
They introduce themselves as well.
"I usually go soloing. I wanted to join a guild, but it's so hard to choose! I don't wanna be bossed around, but I don't want to have too much responsibilities!"
"Then why don't you join our own guild?" Said Rhein, as he gives her a guest key.
"I'll try! I must have a look at your guild first."
"Then why don't you come with us?" Said Kiori.
"Uhm....not now. You see....I've got stuff to do after this."
"Allright then! See you sometime!" Kiori and Rhein warped back.

[end of part 1]

Wednesday, March 12, 2008


Here's my all new WANTED LIST!!
(a list of my friends, encounters, inspirations, etc.)


Last Update: 12/03/08

Akira Tomosuke
Allison Carmichael
Angelo Sotira
Antonio Rafael Restar
Arianne Baldiviano
Bassem Hassan
Candiss Pereyra
Caselyn Jader
Christian Bautista
Christian Cañada
Ciel Anthony Simon
Cris Anthony Mendez
Dunton John Arca
Edwin Francis Briones
Errol Castillo
Gerard Way
Hannah Santos
Harold Masilungan
HYDE (Hideto Takarai)
Irene Agnes Estrellado
Jake Ramos
Jason Merle
Jean Yllan Catalla
Jeanica Bianca Marie Glifonea
Jessica Zubia
Joan Leigh Sutherland
Joanna Marie Macalalad
Joanabel Dizon
John Lyndon Phillip Planas
John Nico Echenique
Jonathan Jagoba
Jonathan Mejia
Jose Tiquia
Julius Cada
Justin Suico
Kathleen Mae Talusig
Kris Añana
Krizza Labita
Lance Almoro
Lorenzo Artigas
Louie Albina
Louisse Lynn Antonette Young
Ludwig Van Beethoven
Luigi Rafael Serran
Melissa Cabral
Miko Hughes
Noel Angelo Camba
Pauline Bathan
Rafael San Antonio
Ram Pureza
Reymund Cereno
Ronnie Winter
Sharisse Almoro
Shiela Lynn Tolentino
SHK (So hyung kim [?])
Simon Reis
Takanori Nishikawa
Name not known (Autistic?) Guy

If you find your name on this list, that means....I will never forget you!! *hugs*

Saturday, March 8, 2008


I'm in great pain today. I have a *something about something* dillema, I've got exams, and.........

I have so many things I want to show the world, and I'm not afraid to promote it. - Website (archived as geocities closed down) - DeviantART Profile - Youtube Profile

Drop by....maybe you will discover some good things about me (and maybe bad things...just kidding =P)

The truth is, I wanna do everything. No, I wanna be everything. Sounds impossible, right?

I wanna be a game designer, programmer, manga/anime artist, composer, singer/artist(though I'm not very good).....and just about everything regarding the digital world. Only problem is that I LIVE IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE.

Can anyone help share my talents to the world?

Kristel "Kazaki" Cuadra

Thursday, January 24, 2008

OS-Tan Desu

Here's my current addiction!! OS-Tan!!

The OS-tans are an Internet phenomenon or meme that originated within the Japanese Futaba Channel which has spawned a number of strange visual gags and characters that have spread to western internet culture. Some of the characters have entered the real world in the form of various goods such as figures, dolls or images printed on pillows. Such items are mainly produced by Japanese dōjin artists and groups.The OS-tans are the moe anthropomorphism/personification of several operating systems by various amateur Japanese artists. The OS-tans are typically depicted as women, with the OS-tans representative of Microsoft Windows operating systems usually depicted as sisters of varying ages.


Since I really love Computers, I think this would be awesome if it were to be an official Animé series! But sadly, it's not an ...

However, It's still 'kawaii' or 'cute' in japanese ^^

That's all! ^^
>> Kazaki~